Writing/thinking locking in at 11pm on a Wednesday.
Sometimes I struggle with the fact I’m not as academic as my peers. I’m super dyslexic and told myself I couldn’t read well for years, so I just didn’t…I have a ton of shame around all of this.
I feel ashamed I don’t understand complex sentence structure, don’t know the big words & find myself reading pages of books over and over because information hardly sticks.
Don't get me wrong, I don't think this makes you a better person; I'm the first to say that things shouldn't be over complicated and information should be accessible for all. I didn't find out I was dyslexic until I was 20, in my second year of uni. Part of me feels neglected that it took so long and that I never got to develop learning in the way my brain works. Sometimes I feel like a bit of potential has been taken away because I found out so late.
It seems stupid but I just always told myself that writing wasn't "my thing" so I never actually tried.
All of this has come up because I was doing some writing this evening and I put it into chatgpt to check some of the grammar (NOT something I do usually, and definitely not what I do with my blog posts lol, I do not edit any of this). Then I thought...humm..what would this piece of writing be like if it were written at a higher level of education. Well....fuck me I guess, I should not have done that, its soooooo weird but I also wish I had it when I was at uni lol.
I need to not shame myself though I guess, I've grown to like how I write now, yeah it might be basic but I like that my tone of voice gets across:)
Some other things:
I haven't done a blog post in ages and it feels good to be back here again.
I've just had my Invisalign braces put on and my mouth is ******* right now.
I've been going to crip craft club online for the past month or so and I'm loving it, I don't tend to do a traditional craft but I try to do something.
My room is almost fully decorated; it just needs to be tidied.
I'm on my 3rd week of The Artist Way, it's going ok, I'm adapting it for my energy levels. I'm enjoying the tasks.
